**Life, you twist and turn**

Have you ever wondered what's going to happen next? What's just around that turn? Should I take a U turn?
Things can be hard, things can be tough-it's true what they say though, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. You can take it as bullshit, or you can take it as a positive thought to get you through your next turn. Either way, you're using it, so who ever thought that up is getting use from it.
Sometimes the way you feel through these tough times are like a cyclone tearing through your room, you come home and find your bed turned upside down, the next day, you find your bed back in place ready to be wept and slept in.....but your favorite pair of underwear is hanging on the ceiling, out of reach. Along with your favorite pair of pants, now dirty and peed on by the cat....not to mention your running late. With traffic. For something your have looked forward to for a month. Damnit. You think, 'okay, I have another pair.' Slip them on, on you can't button them. Oh, the lovely feelings of no control.
If you think about things differerently, you can come out positive......you have no control over these situations.....but if you did-would you just complain about being bored?
My father is in the hospital, receiving treatment for Melanoma. Saying it lightly, I'd say.....IT SUCKS. But, I have never talked to him as comfortably as I do right now. Let me tell you, it did NOT start that way, I was very uncomfortable. But as the hours went on-and the realization of my feelings for my family came clear, it got easier. I cried with my mom, brother and sisters, I talked to them openly-and felt better afterwards. I have always had a feeling of uneasiness talking to them, maybe because I'm the youngest, 6+ years younger. Maybe it's because I have few people to open up to, either way, this whole situation has actually been a positive one (considering). I very much wish it could have been under different circumstances, but there's no control over that.

I'm at the point where I'm writing for me, I'm not writing for the reader. I'm writing for my own peace of mind, to get myself to sigh that relaxing sigh of relief---so I have no clue where I am actually going with this whole blog! All in all, I guess just remember, positivity is a helpful crutch, so use it. It may sound cliche and like a joke-but it really is true.
Why go through life negative and create those worry wrinkles when you can have smile lines instead. Remember, smiles lines are easier to hide because they are caused by smiles-which means you can't see them when ARE smiling......and if you have those smile lines, it means you're smiling an awful lot. Get what I'm saying? Smile. :)
I don't proofread my stuff.....so some of it may be confusing-just like me! Just like life! So....LOVE IT ANYWAY!!!
:)