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Sunday, November 22, 2009

Life List!

Well, I gave in, I'm making one. What to do in my lifetime.

1. Snowboard in Chili
2. Snowboard/visit Finland & Switzerland
3. Hike & Meditate in Nepal & Tibet. Visit an Earthly beyul.
4. Help in Kenya, then hike Kilamanjaro
5. Hike Half Dome
6. Own a classic old (1960's) VW bug & a Subaru
7. Live in a cabin near the mountains (no cell phone service would be ideal)
8. Snowboard Grand Targhee
9. Paraglide
10. Make my family proud
11. Surf
12. Hike Castle Peak, ID.
13. Hike the Grand Tetons
14. Paraglide
15. *Truly* make someone happy
16. Heliboard
17. Backpack Kauai

Failing the acceptance chapter!

So, I was sitting in church today listening to an awesome talk being given by an awesome chick when I needed to write, something came to me and I had the urge. I had no clue what I was about to write, but I needed to.
Then, after wards, on my way to work (yes, ON MY WAY to work. I multitask very well, most of the time!) I read what I wrote. In a way it surprised me. Is my sub-conscience trying to tell me something?? Anyway.....here's what flooded onto that paper this morning out of my brain.....

Is acceptance a sort of agreement? Is it shaking hands with life, finally letting go of a stubborness and humbling yourself with the truth?
In short moments of clarity and realization, that's what I've come to understand. Acceptance doesn't mean you have to deal alone, look up and ask for help. It means you can move on and know that you will be okay. Know that you'll feel pain, know that won't be alone, know that can hold your hand out and use your experiences to help ease another aggrieved heart.
Maybe sometimes you need to realize that your headed towards acceptance......and just accept it.


Monday, November 16, 2009

Happiness is your choice

Life is hard, and that's no lie! People go through different difficult obstacles all the time, such as losing a loved one, failing college, divorce, causing others harm, even just tiny things such as losing keys, wallet and a purse in one day. Some obstacles are a little harder than others....although, I think that can't be measured.
People are so different, it's fascinating and amazing! What may be so hard for one person, may just make another stronger. I went through a time feeling sorry for myself, which in turn made others feel sorry for me (which was NOT awesome) and made others not want to be around me (ALSO not awesome). I think one day I was smacked with the realization that I make my minutes, my hours and my days. HEY, I even make my years.
I know that there are so many large uncontrollable variables, but I figure that if I look at my life as a big picture and look at other's lives, that those variables will slowly seem like tiny problems that remind me of a dandelion's parachute ball that you can just blow and watch float away with complete content.
Some days are terrible, I know, but look for a person who looks just a tad bit worse, and make them smile. I know, that's my answer all the time, but your heart just grows with every person you touch. Life is just a day by day process, when you feel yourself rushing , just grab that dandelion and take a second to blow away your stress. Even just for a that minute. That one minute will turn to two, which one day will turn to three, and so on.
Good things take time and it seems that today, people aren't cherishing that time and soaking it up, enjoying it. Life is so amazing and full of true peace and love, even in the middle of hate and war, you just need to open your eyes and look a little bit more. The little things around us are beautiful even when we aren't, inside and out.
All I ask is that you take an extra minute to look around, notice a tiny flower, notice a beautiful, quiet, rich green tree, notice the exchange of a look exploding with love between a couple, notice how the sun warms up your face after the wind dies down, notice how, no matter where you are, you can find beauty within your world. Notice that you can make the best out of every day, even though sometimes the "best" isn't even good, or even alright....it'll be better than how you were before you started thinking about making your day better. Happiness really is your choice, all you really have to do is realize it, then grab that dandelion and roll with the punches! SMILE!! :)

Friday, November 6, 2009

What's going on?

So, my life is crazy. A lot of friends know this and a lot of family points it out. There are positives to being a "free spirit" or a "transient." There also negatives though. I always talk about where I have been, and I always miss it. I then go back and it's not the same, I miss the last place I was in.
I'm afraid I won't ever be content in the present. Keep in mind that content is completely different than happy. I'm always happy with the present. What's the point if your not happy, and passing that happiness onto others? Aura and energy are real things, not just hippie hogwash, I promise you that. Why can't I be content? It's the question of the century. A boy has never kept me down, a job has never kept me down, and an apartment hasn't either. Is it independance? Who knows!