Lets finish this year already

So, as of this moment, I sitting in a massive kitchen with bachelor pad red light district style lights and zebra rugs. I could laugh and ultimately focus on how pimping this pad is, or open my eyes for once and realize the reality of this Christmas. It hasn't been as bad as I assumed it would be, although, it hasn't been the easiest either.
Do you ever wonder if things happen for a reason? I'm now in Utah-of all places, Utah? I think if anyone knows me, they know I will disappear oh so quick when things start getting stressful or negative. I think I can't ignore this any longer, no more miss tough girl. I spend a lot of time by myself, and I have a lot of time to think. Why the flight response? I always imagine the second you stop for a breath, you get smacked in the back of the head with what's chasing you. So why can't we learn and realize that's what's going to happen? Creatures of habit, I suppose. That's why we need each other. As humans, we need to help hold each other up. It's just a matter of finding someone you can trust not to let you fall. I think that you meet others during that time you need someone to help you, but a lot of people don't realize who. We are taught not to trust someone so quickly, maybe life is about opening up and if someone can't deal with that, then who cares. You figured it out quick and that's less time wasted.
This blog is kind of just kind of my mind throwing up thoughts, words, and subconscious crap that's floating around-so don't expect it to make any sense.
Life is day by day, and hour by hour-don't dwell on the little things, and just take everything as it comes. If people stopped trying to complicate things, I think they would figure how how happy they really are. My dad was always super chill & I wondered why he never worried sometimes. It's because he taught me that life is just plain fun. I hope I can pass that on, and get others to realize it, and not worry about the small stuff. :)
I hope everyone has a good christmas this year. I know it's been a tough year for everyone. Maybe if we go into the next year with a positive outlook, it'll be a little bit better :) Merry Christmas everyone. Peace & lots of love :)